Monday, July 20, 2009

25 ghosts

music: Monsters of Folk - Say Please

I feel the need to understand how sm who has tortured so many ppl (or even just one person) can live with himself/herself, but I'm afraid I'll never be able to.

I'm reading a little sth about the concentration camp that existed in my hometown in 1944, and even though I've read and heard so much about methods of torture, I still can't believe sm was capable of such horrible deeds. Or maybe it's more like I can't believe sth like that happened in the little town where I've lived my whole life.

What's strange is that I only found out about this in high school, when one of my English teachers mentioned it. Until then, for me that forest was just a place where ppl went for picnics and to have a relaxed fun day. As a kid, I would go there quite often, and I simply cannot explain to myself how come, in all those yrs, no one's ever mentioned anything about the dark past of that place. Is it just ignorance or doesn't anyone care at all?

I don't know why I felt the need to go there now, why this sudden interest of mine to find out what's happened there... It was so sad to see that there was absolutely nothing there that could remind us of that dark past: around 7,700 Jews held there for 23 days, till they were taken to Auschwitz, and 25 deaths because of the cruelty of their torturers.

(more photos: bright as a nazi lampshade (1), bright as a nazi lampshade (2) and witnesses)

Thursday, July 16, 2009


music: Leonard Cohen - Suzanne

I wrote a little sth for Dilema veche a while ago, and today they published it. I've been so excited about this because when I was reading it in high school I would say to myself that I could never write as well as those ppl write (and that's still true), that I could never write sth that would be worth publishing in those pages. And now that I've finally seen my name there, I don't know... I feel so empty I guess. It just feels like everything I do is so pointless, that nothing's ever going to change (but I think I've already said this here, so this post is rather pointless too).

And then, the insecure kid in me asks 'why?' Why would M. offer me such a chance? I've done nothing to deserve it. Well, I guess I'm not used to ppl doing nice things for me for no reason...

Ugh, I can't believe how ungrateful I can be sometimes! I should just enjoy the moment and stop worrying about the uncertain future and about my meaningless existence for at least one day.

P.S. a link will probably be available on Monday, and I'll update this post.

Update: and here's the link: Povestile Suzannei

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

This is really it

music: The Jackson 5 - Who's Loving You

(Smokey Robinson, the author of this song, spoke at the Michael Jackson Memorial, and Shaheen Jafargholi performed that same song)

'When I had you I treated you bad'... I think this song sums up really well sth that seems to be a rule with no exceptions -- we only learn to appreciate sm once he/she is gone. Oh, how the media enjoyed trashing Michael! He had to die in order for the same media to finally take notice of his huge impact on music and pop culture, and of his humanitarian side too. How sad... Unfortunately, I'm afraid they won't let him rest in peace (I mean, they're already digging for some more trash).

Also, I can't help but wonder how come Michael was so alone and so miserable when all these ppl who spoke at his memorial claimed they were part of his life...

My dose of Conor

music: Conor Oberst & MVB - Spoiled

Conor & MVB's performance on Letterman, from last night, is already online *yay!*
(lately, youtube has proven to be an unreliable source for me; nevertheless, you can still find great stuff there)

Spoiled / Letterman, 07/06

(I love Conor's hat! ^_^)


Also, yesterday I came across some scans of a recent Rolling Stone article about Conor & MVB, and I was kinda sad to find out he's planning on putting an end to the Bright Eyes project. But at the same time I'm looking forward to hearing about his future projects I guess. Besides, I'm glad he's the exploring type of artist -- it's quite refreshing to know he won't be doing the same thing for the rest of his life.


I should definitely check out this LJ community more often. This is a little treasure:

Sunday, July 5, 2009


music: Zbigniew Preisner - Van den Budenmayer

I went to Cluj yesterday, and I just had to buy this:

Friday, July 3, 2009

In love with Weronika and Veronique

music: Bright Eyes - Trees Get Wheeled Away

I absolutely fell in love with Kieslowski's La double vie de Veronique! (I watched it twice in less than 24 hours.) This might be a cliche / sound cheesy but the film is so beautiful that it hurts. Such attention for details, for gestures that create a lovely, magical atmosphere. And that haunting music...

(I'm sorry to say this, but I have the feeling Jeunet let himself a bit too inspired by La double vie de Veronique when he made Amelie.)

Later edit: I've finally uploaded photos of the DVD on flickr. I wish I had a copy of it just for that piece of film: